Thinking

Our Day Trip to Canada

Swimming and Playing on the Beach of Lake Superior 

Sometimes I forget to think for me. I get so caught up in thinking for everyone else or reading and thinking other peoples thoughts that I forget to stop and think for myself. What do I think that about this? Or what are my thoughts on this subject. You say... isn't that what this blog is... your thoughts?

A lot of times I catch myself reading an article or blog post and thinking; "that is such a great thought I should write something about that." which is quickly followed by, "oh that would be dumb they just wrote about it and you would say the same thing only not as well."

When I'm prepping to go on vacation I usually dream of quiet time and reading, writing, and thinking. And I'm always alarmed when I return home to find that I packed my books and journal for no purpose at all. Other times I make up a grand schedule to figure out how to get some mediation and quiet thinking time in before the day gets started and just as grandly push it aside every morning until tomorrow's morning. (which of course never comes.)

I pack a good book to read on the trip, only to find that the baby needs to be entertained constantly. I think about getting up early on vacation and enjoying a quiet devotional time only to fall into bed after staying up way to late knowing all to well that an early morning isn't going to happen. I think about a meditation time on the beach, but that quickly changes when the 18 month old races for the water and needs a constant hands on parent.

Sometimes I wonder if it's possible to think in this world today. We rush around so much that I forget to think. I think it's important to keep within a good range of the current times, but also remembering that what is popular isn't usually what is best. Finding a balance between life and quiet, thinking and doing, family and self, can be really hard. Having a personal determination to do something (knowing that no one else will necessarily be there for you) and doing it , and keep doing it is really really really hard!

Easy things are addicting, sweet things are addicting, laziness is addicting, sleep is addicting, computers/phones are addicting. Most of these things are going to be in our life wether or not we want them. Others of them will be prevalent in most people around us, influencing us constantly. Being confident in what you want to be and how you want to be used by God, being determined no matter whats around you, to do what you believe to be best for you and having perseverance like a baby reaching for candy is the only way to push past that rut in the road, hop that wall and keep on running.

It's so easy to get bogged down, to live without feeling (realizing) it, and to just do. I don't want to be a robot to the advertising industry, the Hollywood crowd, or anything else. Finding quiet time within each day is an important part to keeping life balanced and in the hands of God. Let tomorrow morning be the morning when you finally say yes.

Sarah